At first I was just going to send a hug, but I wanted to add a comment too. Yes, this poor girl died, and that's awful and yes her family will always have this to deal with, but how many people have you prevented from dying? How many families have you kept intact, who don't have to go through the pain each day of having lost someone? I couldn't do your job, but you do and that's amazing. Part of your job is coping when you can't save everyone, and that doesn't make you a monster. You couldn't carry around the grief for every person who's died. You wouldn't be able to function so you wouldn't be able to go and save so many other people. Vikki Spence (Ewan's wife)