The gym is a good idea-i had the same kind of 'what am i doing with my life' crisis and thought id get off my fat,lazy arse and get fit.I joined a gym and made sure i signed a contract for a year,hopefully you're as tight with money as i am and you want to get your moneys worth!The first 6-8 visits were hard but after that i enjoyed going,got fitter,lost weight and found a new self confidence after which i seemed to have more energy for other interests-it all kind of snowballed and i feel twice the man for doing it. I too have lost a friend recently and it made me think i was jst sitting around wasting my time and that i should go out and grab life by the bollox and make the best of it-i was right and ive never looked back. Don't stop blogging though,i think a lot of people would miss it-myself included. So get out there-you won't regret it....