I'm so glad that someone else said what I was thinking. It doesn't matter how 'worthy' the cause; if it kills you to do it, it won't help anyone in the long run. It's why I can't go and work in Africa, it's why I didn't want to be a hospital midwife. As it is, I do a hard but great job in the community, and I don't want to kill myself through sheer emotional breakdown. Nobody has to be a martyr. Do what you think best. Cxx