I no longer worry much about feeling the emotions about calls like this. They tell me I am alive. I worry tremendously when I don't feel anything. For what it's worth, you showed great compassion by treating and transporting even when you knew it was much too late. While it may not help the parent now, in the future thay may be able to draw a little comfort knowing that what could be done was done. I with you, my friend, you did good.