Second shelf on the left. It just reads to me like he was trying to manipulate his girlfriend with mind games - hell, maybe that kind of manipulation was what she had enough of, was the reason she was leaving. His intention was not so much to harm himself as to make her do what he wanted her to do, to control her, to exert power over her, to upset her. I am perfectly aware, thank you, that depression is classed as a mental illness. I have been there. Please do not presume to have any idea what I "vision as mentally ill" as you put it. I am also aware that people - with depression and other mental health issues, or sane as anything, or anywhere in between - are not saints, can be inclined to "drama" (eg pretending to be unconscious), can have trouble keeping hold of the idea that it's not all about Them, and are often quite capable of recklessly manipulating other people for their own ends. Not every superficial self-harmer has a clinical mental health problem, not every troublesome child has full-blown ADHD, not every young offender had a tragic upbringing. These things exist, for the unfortunate minority, and when they exist then they should certainly be taken into account - but I don't think they should be presumed to exist in all cases, or even most.