Wish I could send you a hug, or a few hours out of my day today where I won't have that kind of burden on me, and those memories - I'd swap you my peaceful quiet hours without a second's hesitation if I could so you can have a break from it. I'll echo the other reply and say take the time you need, and don't feel worse because you're "not coping" - the one thing I wish I'd known when I went through a traumatic period is that, you need to recover in your own way, and it's not a competition. Be gentle to yourself. There's not much else I can say except send my most heartfelt best wishes to you.