I must say, I don't usually comment on blogs or the like, especially those of people I don't know. However, I read this entry, and then I read your comment kevin, and if I hadn't been in work, I'd have broken down in tears. I really hope you've found even a slight bit more peace in the time since you've posted this, because having an experience like that can kill you. Life is so cruel, and I just hope you'll be ok, because the reason you reacted like this is because you do care, and in the medical services, that is what you need. I hope things turn out ok for you. For all of you.