I think alot of people feel guilty for these kinds of thoughts, but logically I'm not sure you should be. I mostly work in hospitals. Some people in hospitals are extremely ill, a very few are going to arrest. Lots of these incidents could be prevented, and I work hard to try and do that, but for some patients it's unavoidable. I don't want them to be so ill, but they are - it's just a fact of life. Emergency care is what I'm good at. It's what I like. People are going to be ill whether I want them to be or not, but I am passionate about what I do. I get there, and I turn them around. I enjoy doing it, it's a challenge, and I'm good at it. I'm the guy you want at 4am when there's a patient down the ward about to arrest. But most of all, what I like is to get there and deal with the patient, and then see them sat up in bed talking at 6. There are a lot of healthcare workers who are absolutely scared s**tless by that kind of thing, that's fine. They choose to work in other areas. Some of my best friends work in rehabilitation, elderly care etc. where there are patients with significant long term cognitive and physical disability. They enjoy working with these people, making them better. But does anybody criticise them, say that they're sick for wishing infirmity on people so that they can do what they're good at? Of course not. But really, what's the difference?