We had a hospital worker set fire to the nurses' home so he could go and "help" .Luckily no one was killed although he had set several fires. It was years before the block was re built because the hospital did not have insurance. I remember being on an escort duty with an ambulance crew. On our way back we saw another ambulance on the other carriageway. Or crew were firstly jealous and then critical of the other crew- eg "why are they sitting him up?" etc. Hate to tell you this mate, you are normal! I get a debrief from you know who when she comes home from work, I always used to say to her"have you had any of our patients?" You are honing your skills like a cat with a mouse! Surgeons used to go to N Ireland to get experience, it's all part of life's rich tapestry as my recently deceased stepfather-in-law used to say. He also used to sing "Life's a golden dream" , bless him.