Tom, you did exactly what was needed, you have NOTHING to berate yourself for. It sounds as though the incident really disturbed you. I hope that you can put it down to experience soon though you were definitely between the devil and the deep blue sea. About people who overdose I have very ambivalent views and feelings undoubtedly because I have major depressive illness and feel condemned to stay alive because of what it would do to others if I didn't. I can also understand how terrible it must feel to leave someone who is going to die when your whole being rebels against that. What does the law say about it? Would you be complicit in suicide or manslaughter if you left someone rather than getting them sectioned? Of course you couldn't know how long they had been ill or what they and their Drs felt the prognosis was. Sometimes nothing can help make life reasonable or bearable. Patients who have had both say that depression is worse than cancer, heart attack, trigeminal neuralgia or kidney stones because there is NO hope. The whole thing is so horribly tangled. Take care of yourself, Isobel