These are the calls that we remember for ever. Year after year of boring, routine shifts are occasionally punctuated with "The Bad One". Flashbacks? PTSD? Nah, but they do become part of our career history and we never, ever forget them. Over the years, the bar gets higher, so we have fewer and fewer standout calls, but they still happen. This was a difficult call, but one in which you acquitted yourself well. The is the type of call where you realize that you can do this job and do it well. Don't dwell on the dead, rather think of the people who aren't dead because you were there and did a good job. Gary