It's when you permanently view patients in the same way you see sliced up meat in Sainsburys that you should worry. For then you would have lost the quality of compassion that made you choose your career. You are human and as such your days are dictated by moods that you are not aware change from day to day and also during the day. It's part of the make-up that separates us from animals. Take solace that you're not feeling emotionally numb all the time - then you would have a problem. You are human and one of the finest I know. BTW. That's the first time I've seen you use the 'f' word.