i completely agree with smoochie597, better to come unfeeling from a failed resus than all emotional & shaky & too upset to do your job properly. sometimes you can't allow yourself to feel because there's just too much to do with all the other patients who are still alive and still need you to look after them. it's so, so cruel to do this, a self-inflicted violence to your soul, but it's a cruel necessity because otherwise your patients will suffer and you will lose your mind through too much caring.