You are so very right. I once led the resus of a 14-year old boy who had hanged himself. Sadly it wasn't successful. Afterwards the cas sister and I both cried. Bizzarely I felt almost slightly "weak" at the time; however when the initial emotion of the event had subsided, I came to exactly the same conclusion that you did - the day when something like that doesn't make me cry is the day that I should leave medicine. On the other side of the coin, yesterday evening in surgery I had a lovely chat with one of our patients - an eighty-odd year old lady. I discovered she'd been the first ever WPC in our area. I felt honoured to be part of this lady's life.