Thats how I felt when I read the post too, because no matter how better off you are without him, we ll need the "closure" thing, and you can't have that till you've told him how you feel. Writing it down helps, I hope blogging it was some kind of therapy, a tip someone gave to me was to write everything you would want to say .. every last little thing, in a letter to said person, as if it was a proper letter.. then just burn it, or maybe put it somewhere with the intention of posting it if you ever get an address. It worked for me is all I can say. (hugs to you all)