It's just like Dr Cox said on a repeat of an episode of Scrubs I watched the other night, he told JD to look around, the guy who'd just come in with his kid at Christmas was the prime candidate to die... but they did save the guy so he could spend Christmas with his kid, just think of all the people you saved so they could spend Christmas with their families. You've got a fantastic imagination, your words inspire so many people, try to think of something to inspire yourself. You don't have to get out of bed to do that, it makes it easier to lie there though, a warm fuzzy cocoon of nice thoughts :o)