Hang in there Tom. Those warm, cloudless mornings will be here before you know it. I suppose its easy to say 'just remember the good times', but also remember the inspiration that people like me take from your posts. It wasnt long ago, I was in a crap job, with distant aspirations to join the Ambulance service, going nowhere. Through reading your blog for ages now, (and your book!) I realised it was all I wanted to do. Not quite there yet, but I do now work for Welsh Ambulance and Im focused on getting to where I want to be. Experiencing those highs and lows that you so amazingly describe. Mike