I could witter on about the things that have helped me get over periods of depression, but this is not about me. When you are in that deep dark pit you can see no way out. If it is any consolation (I guess probably not) I seem to have 'turned a serotonin corner' this year. Maybe that will happen for you? I really hope so. The other people who have posted comments have said everything I could possibly wish to say. You are loved not only by your family and friends, but also by the people who read this Blog and so many of your 'customers'. You are fcuking Robbie Williams man!! All that adoration and respect. Every time you write a Blog or climb into that Ambulance you are making a difference to everyone you come into contact with. In the days of the Bible you'd have had a huge following... "he is not the Messiah, he is a very naughty boy" my Mr & I love you - as does everyone else it would appear. Hang on in there. Tricia x