Go with it.You know, in your heart, of the job that needs to be done. I think it's natural that we should feel sad. Some more than others. If we don't feel then why do we do the job? Tears can bring about great therapy and they happen at any time of year. You've been (and continue to be) of great inspiration to the public and those in the same job. Grab a tissue. Blow your nose. The smiles will return when they are ready. If i am in east London and trip over a wild daisy and break my fingernail i hope you turn out ;0) Smile! It increases your face value.