I'm new to your blog, but on the night that i heard the radio 4 play, I did sit up half the night reading your blog archives. (By the way, it's a terrific blog, and has opened my rather sheltered eyes to all sorts of wonders and harsh realities of life). What shines out above all is your humbling, and humble, humanity, and your deep compassion for the rest of us frail beings. Whatever you may think, there's a whole lotta love somewhere inside you which keeps you doing this job. I'm sure it ain't the money. Of course there are all sort of factors influencing your decision, and the blog may be one them. But what the hell! Apply for the job - for, at the very least, the experience, and so that you don't find yourself a month or two hence on some godawful job on the graveyard shift wishing your were tucked up in bed with a demanding and interesting job as LAS press officer to go to in the morning. You could always turn it down if you got it. Always best to avoid putting yourself in the position of being able to have regrets...