Sounds like most of you patients were in better condition that you were. Perhaps you should switch roles with any patient that's healthier than you - or at least draft them for the night. They can then do all the drunk waking, vomit mopping and so on for you until they miraculously recover, and you can get a bit of badly needed kip. :-) It would be worth throwing up on them just to keep them busy. I can see the headlines now! As for killing the idiots, fine, no problem. Killing yourself - really bad idea. New job, sounds like a good plan. As my Dad says, suicide is not part of the job.