Days like this (winter) is one of the reasons l liked (still like even though l moan) working nights l reckon. You only see the dark and sleep through the day so the "gloom and dark" is acceptable because it is natural. No doubt some psychiatrist would find something wrong with that theory. May be worth starting the meditation up again swop it every so often with the computer games just for variety in numbness. Sounds like you got lucky with partners, both work and personal both are understanding.