Having done 34 years in the service it gets in your blood and whenever you go to leave it takes a lot. Its a great job dont just giveit up you can move to a different ambulance service and see how that takes. Or best of all buy my book Bells two Tones And Sirens either from Amazon or Autherhouse i brought yours and i enjoyed it very much like i like reading your bloggs. Keep it up and have a Happy New Year