Hi Tom, Xmas has passed but hope you have a good new year. I've been reading, and occasionally posting for some time now, got a few years under the belt myself and having a bit of a issue with my firm at the moment. We all have to deal with the shit that comes our way; from governmental targets that have bugger all to do with patient care, from our management ( or lack of it ) who kow-tow to these targets and don't have the balls to say any different and from the 'patients' or thier relatives who abuse us and the service we provide. Yet we all get that very special 'buzz' when we know that in some way we have helped someone, either through some minor situation like lifting a granny off the floor and tucking her up under her quilt, or that resus that went right and a relative finds the time to get in touch to say thank you for what what we did or even the death that was handled with compassion and understanding with a grateful family despite thier grief. You have that special gift in making those things possible. It would be wrong of me to say 'Don't turn your back on it' as I am sure that you will find another role in helping those worse off than you. Whatever you decide, please let it be some role where you can come home, look at yourself in the mirror and say ' Today I made someones life just a little bit better '. And whatever you do, keep writing about it. Best wishes for 2009 and all that it may bring. Barry