We all have those ghosts that haunt us, Tom. We mourn them. When I have a difficult run, I always question them, and continue to on some to this day... even events from 27 years ago. I remember those protocols clearly. Now, they seem primitive in comparison. Have the survival rates changed? Ironically, according to recent literature, not much. You did what you could at the time. And yes, I am a firm believer in the belief that when it is our time to die, it is our time, and nothing anyone does will change that. As much as we never want to see a child die, it was simply her time, for whatever reason.