My dad passed away after falling off a cliff, presumably during a drunken blackout. I'd had to let him go long before that so totally believe and understand that you're all better off without your father but still, this post made me cry - and that's rarer than hens' or even dragons' teeth, I can tell you! All of us out here in the internet ether respect and admire you and see wonderful things in you. Possibly all the more now. Sorry if that's a bit gushing but I had to say it. His loss.