It's cr4p, huh. I don't work in your field, but I DO see in my own a lot of people who have a "sense of entitlement" and think that everyone else is just here to pick up their problems and fix them. I'm sorry you feel shitty, and I'm sure that the warmth of strangers is no help at all, but as a reader I *feel* like I know you, and consequently care about you. Even when you don't get sent to any proper jobs, the knowledge that you're there covering us makes a difference to those of us who wouldn't dial 999 lightly! S.