Been reading for a few months and the thing I find amazing is how much you do care. As a fellow health care worker I know the feeling where you just can't get on with a patient and do the neccesary but without the smile/joke/empathy you normally have. Feels shit and you go away thinking you are turning into some cold psychopath. Not so. What you are doing is being human. For some reason nurses, doctors, LAS etc are expected to be able to rise above normal behaivour. Why ? We are just people, make mistakes, erros of judgement, have bad days and so on. The trick is to understand that this is reasonable and unavoidable, and do the J.O.B. right despite it, even if you don't get a warm fuzzy feeling from each and every one. G