Agreed with a previous reader that you come across as compassionate in this article. As a note, I'm a person who would sign a 'Do Not Resuscitate'-type order if I knew the procedure for doing so and it occurred to me (I'm 26 and reasonably healthy). Were I in a position that I was aware of what was happening to my former flesh as an EMT was trying to revive me while knowing it wasn't going to work, I'd understand. I can't imagine that anyone who has sufficient peace to accept their death wouldn't accept the apology you were thinking to her (and if they aren't accepting it then they'd most likely appreciate the effort). There's also the very real possibility of no awareness of what's happening to your body at that point, afterlife or no. Adios, Bill